Emotions

Overall, I would have to say that throughout my pregnancy 

I have kept my emotions in check.

I haven't gone crazy psycho on Randy. 

I haven't cried over silly commercials or movies. 

I haven't been upset and thrown a fit because I haven't gotten my way. 

Etc. Etc. 

This weekend was a little different. 

I was definitely feeling down and for a number of reasons. 

Randy and I have done the long distance thing a number of times, but this has 

definitely been the hardest. 

While I encouraged him to take the job offer (better company, better job title, more OT hours),

I guess I wasn't prepared for how much this pregnancy would make me miss 

him even more! 

Our weekends together are pretty limited. 

We basically get all of Saturday to hang out and then I try to stay with him as long as I can on Sunday before I have to make the drive back north. 

This Sunday.. it was a struggle. I did not want to get in my car. 

My heart just sank knowing I had to leave him and that it would be another two weeks before I would see him again. 

Two weeks may seem like nothing, but lately it has been everything as I have really been feeling isolated and alone up here. 

Secondly, I was surrounded by the fact that it was Mother's day weekend more than ever this year. 

Yes, I am an expecting mom, but I haven't really done any true 

motherly duties for my daughter quite yet.

Sure, I gave up my body and she is having free rein with it, but really aside from that

I haven't earned the title of "mom" quite yet. 

I felt so blessed by all the warm wishes for a Happy Mother's day from those close and dear to me

.. but it was hard to throughly enjoy when I was missing my own mama so. 

This is the fourth year she has been gone and while each year they say 

it will get easier and easier, this pregnancy only made it that much harder. 

It was a reminder of all the things my daughter is going to miss out on, 

that I miss so terribly about my mom. 

While my mom had her own struggles at times, 

she was always filled with so much love and compassion..

and even though we didn't always see eye to eye, my mom taught me 

so much about life and what it is truly worth. 

One thing I know for sure, is to never take your loved ones for granted and the biggest thing 

I want for Tegan is to be surrounded by her family who love her so dearly already. 

I am blessed to have such an amazing family, both mine and Randy's, who love us unconditionally and support us through all our decisions and life changes. 

How far along? 24 Weeks 3 days  

Total weight gain: 13 lbs.. My Doctor told me she is very happy with my weight gain thus far and said that she wants me to gain at least 22-25 lbs. She said that for being more than half way through my pregnancy, even if I double my weight at this point, I would only be up 26 lbs, which is perfect.

Maternity clothes? 60% maternity clothes, 40% regular.. if I could, I would wear maternity clothes all the time (or clothes that I specifically bought for this pregnancy); however, it adds up quickly!

Stretch marks? No.. I did finally buy some belly lotion stuff this weekend though.   

Best moment this week: Randy feeling Tegan kick! She still doesn’t kick very strong, but I had told him I thought I might have felt her from the outside; it’s always hard to tell since I can for sure feel her on the inside. Well, every time she would kick and he would try to feel, she would stop. FINALLY, she was going crazy for a couple minutes and he was actually able to point out the kicks without me saying anything. He got it right on every time! J

Miss Anything? This week I was definitely missing my mama. It makes me sad knowing my daughter will never get to see her.

Movement: Progressively getting more frequent and stronger.  

Food cravings: Still no cravings, which is fine by me!

Anything making you queasy or sick: No more queasiness! Yay!  

Gender: Girlie Girl  

Labor Signs: None

Symptoms: tailbone pain, Charlie horses in my calves, spasms through the butt, starting to notice swelling by the end of the day.

Belly Button in or out? It is in, but Randy pointed out that it is definitely on its way to becoming an outie. I tried to deny it, but I guess it is getting shallower.

Wedding rings on or off? On!

Happy or Moody most of the time: Very emotional this weekend. Tried to keep myself in check, but eh.. What can you do.
Looking forward to: Finalizing our registry and planning the nursery.