Freak out Moments

So, I completely surprised myself. 

I didn't think I would have any real "freak out" moments, until I had one. 

I've been asked a couple of times if I am nervous about delivering little Miss Tegan and

my typical response is "No" because really when it comes down to it, I'm not.

I'm not afraid of the pain.

I haven't even thought about a c-section as an option.

I'm not afraid that I could potentially die giving birth.

I'm not even afraid of the fact that I am trying this thing all natural. 

But of course.. the ONE time I freak out, it happened to be exactly over me delivering Tegan.

I laugh about it now, because it is pretty funny.

And I remind myself of all the many women who have done this exact same thing already.

For whatever reason though, one day Tegan was moving all crazy like and 

I started thinking about just how big she really has gotten. 

I was loving the fact that I could feel more than just kicks and as I was trying to guess what 

part of her body she was moving up against me, I suddenly was like..

"Oh my gosh! She still has two more months of growing to do. There is NO turning back! I am having this baby whether I like it or not and there is only ONE way for her to come out. 

(Okay.. I know there is really two, but like I said.. c-section is not an option for me at this time).

Haha, it is so crazy to think about what our bodies are capable of doing! 

After I calmed myself down, laughed at myself a little, and reminded myself just how capable 

I am of doing this specific thing, I went about being my happy self again. 

Since then, I have been really curious about how big Tegan actually is and wonder when the doctors start measuring her, or how they even do this in the first place.

I don't think I will be getting any more ultrasounds, unless something serious happens, 

so I don't understand when other expecting moms say their babies 

are in such an such percentile and weigh such and such pounds. 

How do they know this?

At this point in my pregnancy, I think I'm carrying a small baby, but we will see.

 I still have 9 1/2 weeks to go and she is growing every day! 

Just a little fact about me: 

I was born 6 lb 8oz and I was the fattest and chubbiest of all three sisters! :)

How far along? 30 Weeks 3 days

Total weight gain: 20 something..  I actually feel like I have done pretty good since my last weigh-in and am feeling about the same.. So hopefully I am only up a pound or two, if even. ;)

Maternity clothes? Yes. I was really hoping I would fit into my shorts for summer, but lets just say I’m sportin’ some “thunder” thighs. haha

Stretch marks? Nope! And hoping it stays that way!  

Best moment this week: Passing my gestational diabetes glucose test! It is very comforting knowing that I am healthy as it means my baby is hopefully healthy too!  

Miss Anything? I’m starting to miss my work friends even though I haven’t left yet. They are just such a great group of girls to work with that it makes me sad knowing I only have a week and half left with them.

Movement: Yes! I love when I actually see my stomach move with her. Her movement has become so much more frequent, that I become concerned when she isn’t moving.

Food cravings: Still none.. I heard I may start developing some as I get closer to the end, but I’m not real sure about that. I think I will be in the clear.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: I got really sick like yesterday when I went to dinner with my sister. We weren’t sure if it was something I ate earlier and my body just wasn’t happy or if it was completely pregnancy related. Either way, it lasted through this morning and then I started feeling better this afternoon.  

Gender: Pretty in Pink

Labor Signs: None. I really don’t think I have had any Braxton hicks either, which in my opinion is a good thing. Any signs of labor can wait until I move back home. Thanks.

Symptoms: Puffiness, slight edema, typical aches and pains, back pain while sleeping.

Belly Button in or out? It is in still. I’m actually really surprised!

Wedding rings on or off? Thankfully on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: I am happy. I am really happy with where my life is going right now. It is a mix of emotions, but overall HAPPY!

Looking forward to: My maternity shoot with Miss Marissa on Thursday!